i begin the end of my high school years this year and it scares me, in a year from now i could be applying for universities that would have my ego and self confidence by the nuts and could easily rip them away from me with just one letter in the mail. Before that even i could fail to get the necessary marks on the end of year exams and would have a very slim chance in getting into the future universities........ But after my little panic attack i give myself a little slap on the face (in a prive place not to seem weird to other people ) and say to myself "why the hell am i thinking about this, im a semi smart kid and can work when there are no distractions so why am i worried i have talent that could take somewhere and the determination to make use of it. But the thing that really scares me is change, the fact i will probably never see all my best and closest friends in the same place again, i may never settle down for years and i may die a lonely old man with no loved ones to remember me. then after this recent life altering thought i think about butterflies in a beautiful forest with the fresh rain drops glistening from the small amount of sunshine that seeps through the canopy of trees sending millions of mini rainbows everywhere adding so much colour to the already beautiful surrounding that you dont blink so you never lose that image of that perfect place...................

Anyways that life changing thought occours about every week cause i have an extremely bad memory and it always is fresh to me

So the next time you feel depressed and down in the dumps go find a butterfly and follow it around and watch it do its butterfly thing and i guarantee you will feel so much better and will have a huge smile days after. (see huge smile)

Enjoy life, after this i sure will